When i started out as a freshman at college, i was this hesitant timid person whose level of boldness probably stayed limited to four walls of the house.This certainly wasn't something that i am proud of, and was in desperate need to do away with such an attitude.But such changes aren't easy to imbibe as they require tremendous level of courage, grit and determination.In such situation all that a person needs is a 'CATALYST', good or bad to bring about the necessary change in ourselves.

Well the story starts this way.As i entered the gates of  that heavenly epitome of education, hardly had i prepared for what was to befall on me.Clearly i had wanted to have a normal start to my college, making lots of friends while keeping a tab over the burden of collegiate pressure of studies.Being a teenager, and my testosterone level shooting high up, i had mentally prepared for the disappointment of not having 'Angel' like humanoids roaming around the college premises to keep my morals high.But on the contrary, the college had be startled as it wasn't weak in that department.Ranking people would be bad as it gives a sense of total disregard to human character, but still i would we have a lot 9s & 8s in my college.That was a relief actually.My love life hasn't been something worth talking about.I have put myself in that fray on very few occasion and have been handed a pink slip every time.So i thought maybe it is time to start afresh and what could be better than being surrounded by motivating beauties.But trying too hard can have really harsh consequences.

I had this person in my class who apparently seemed nice(at least during the start) and was indeed very beautiful.So its fair enough to say that after a drought of real'fun', i was inclined towards earning myself something well deserved enjoyment.I developed a crush over her in a way.She and me became close friends eventually.Roaming around together , chatting up at class, it was like living a dream.But i have to say, i wasn't to determined to take things a step ahead any soon.But then i came to know that i was lying to myself since i 'discovered' myself soon.

There was this college trip that had come up in the very 2nd month of our joining the college.Though i wasn't really interested to go, my friend insisted, so i went along with the plan.We went for an overnight stay at a resort in the suburbs.

Well the trip was basically an induction trip by the seniors of the society i was  a part of  and was meant to act as a bonding session with the seniors.We had lot of events like zorbing, paint ball arranged up for us.But i never really felt like doing any of it,mainly because i  have become this self-absorbed person, who somehow tries to distance himself from fun and enjoyment.Me roaming around and giving company to my 'friend' only acted as an excuse.I know how i am and even if  you ask me why i lack that zeal and enthusiasm in my life, i would only present a big quizzical look on my face. Anyways, as the night neared, everybody geared up for the pool party.Again i was very adamant on stepping back and did little to show any sign of eagerness towards what was to follow.

As the pool party began, people got crazy.There was a lot of boozing and i wasn't into that too.But then my friend was pushed or rather picked up by one of the seniors and pushed right into the pool.Now maybe only to be part of the 'fun' she was having , i also started off with a couple of drinks(i regret that moment).Now you see, for people like me, little dose of cough syrup can make me drowsy, let alone NEAT shots of whisky, vodka and rum.After maybe 10-12 rounds, i was me no more and had completely lost control of myself.I started shouting, singing dancing, uttering bullshit and God knows what.Now suddenly i for the first time in my life was being seen as a fun-loving person.But then all that really didn't matter much.Of all i remember , i may have tried to coz upto my dear 'friend' too soon and it only ended up in a disaster.My friend who was very much sober didn't get the Friendly vibes from me, and distanced herself from me.

The next morning i was BACK.It didn't feel good to be back as for that night was something really amazing barring the incident between my friend and me.I didn't remember much of the night but i was told that i was pretty much messed up.As for my friend, i couldn't really look her in the eye.This is something that followed up for the rest of the semester.It was a very painful thing for me, but then i apologised and as of now things are fine.I like her as a friend and see that it is best for both of us if things remain that way.

P.S-I haven't had alcohol since.